Who I Am?

I love being home with my kids and I am so grateful it is something I am able to do. This past year though, I have felt in a rut. I haven't been as happy as I have been in the past. I don't feel as fulfilled being home with my children and seeing to their needs. Sometimes I want to yell "what about me"! Somewhere along the line I forgot who I am. I feel like I have been asleep these last couple of years and now that I am waking up, I am realizing I matter too.

I started writing this blog to try and find myself again. I hope to remember what I like and what I used to do for fun. I haven't written in awhile and I think it's because a part of me is afraid to know. I am safe where I am, it has been a comfortable place for a long time and it is scary to even think about leaving my safety zone. I took on this role to be a mom and got so focused on being the best that I lost myself somewhere along the way.

I want to feel free and spontaneous again. I want to be the girl who believed anything was possible. I want to laugh for no reason. I want to explore new and different places and try new things.

When our youngest graduates high school, I want to be there feeling proud that even though I was a stay at home mom that I was still living my life to the fullest and being the authentic person I was made to be. Hopefully this journey of discovery will help me get to that point.